Tuesday, August 31, 2010


I'm so screwed for my Accounts class. First of all, I'm not good at accounting to begin with. Secondly, I don't have the drive for the subject and find it very dry and monotonous. Thirdly, the prof sort of gave us hints of what's going to come out in the Mid Term (tomorrow!!!) but then in an email we just received, the topics to cover have now expanded exponentially.

We had a replacement class to day for Accounts, eventhough it was a holiday, Independence Day some more. The prof came 40 minutes late...overslept he said. Yeah...some of us would like to be under a comforter too, dreaming of NO MID TERMS.

Seriously, it'll be a miracle if I pass this class. A second coming if I get an A (hah!!). Let's just aim for a B...I'll be thankful not having to repeat this class next sem.

If I do, then I'm royally screwed!!

Sunday, August 29, 2010


Hubby and the girls will be coming back after breaking fast at my in-laws house. That means they'll arrive around 9.30 or 10pm, depending on traffic. As much as I miss them, I've kind of enjoyed the alone time I had. Cleaned the house top to bottom, finished my group assignment (pending a final discussion this afternoon).

I'm at a lost as to what to eat for breaking fast today. It seems such a waste to cook for just one. I had to throw out yesterday's fried rice because it started to smell. Urrkkk! Plus there's not much in the fridge to cook anyway.

Maybe I should just stop by SR or Param on my way back from my group discussion. Or maybe...I should go to my mom's house. lazy to drive all the way out there and then come back before the kids get here.

What to eat..what to eat...

Mandi la dulu....heeee...

Saturday, August 28, 2010


Kind of sad, cooking for one. Eating alone. Sitting at the kitchen table, with all my books scattered around.

I guess it doesn't help I have sad love songs playing via youtube in the background.


But on the upside, I've got a lot done. Both homework and housework. Hopefully I can finish up my ME by tonight and concentrate on Accounts (Eeekkkkk!!!) tomorrow. I also intend to sweep upstairs and wash all the toilets.

Then hubby and the girls can come back to a nice, clean home.

Friday, August 27, 2010

So Quiet

Hubby and the girls (plus the maid) are all in Melaka visiting my in-laws. I didn't go because I have to study; more mid terms looming next week plus I have several group assignments due.

The house is so quiet. A nice environment to study in.

Instead I find myself logging onto youtube and watching sad commercials.

This one made me cry.

Now I miss hubby and the girls.

How much do you want to bet I'll be crying myself to sleep tonight?

Memory Lost

I have very bad memory, especially when it comes to remembering people’s names or even the person themselves. A lot of the times, I meet someone whom I’ve had contact with in the past, that person would be like “Hi Along. How are you? How’s the kids…bla..bla..bla. And I’ll be standing there with a stupid grin on my face, thinking “where do I know you from? Please say your name!”

The same thing happened again this morning. I was lining up at the IRC counter downstairs when one of the personnel asked me “excuse me, did you used to do A-levels at *****”? I looked up at the person and smiled, why, yes, I did used to study there. The guy smiled back and said, yeah, I thought I recognized you…how’s ayam?

Note: Ayam used to be En Rashid’s nick back in school. Don’t ask me how he got it. Friends from his school/uni days still call him that. Never fails to make me laugh.

I looked at the guy again and racked my brain, searching for some indication that I knew him. Alas, I could not place him anywhere in my past. Best thing was, he mentioned some of my other friends and how they had all stayed in touch via FB.


I refuse to get sucked in!!

I told Liza about the guy and she said, yeah…I don’t really remember him either but we stay in touch once in awhile. Over FB. Hmmm…

I guess that’s another reason why I won’t be jumping onto the FB wagon anytime soon. I told Liza, I wouldn’t be accepting anyone from my past as my friend as I wouldn’t recognize any of them. Hahaha.

But seriously, back to the topic at hand. How come people can remember me but I can’t remember people? I try, seriously…I did the whole Ginkgo thingy but did nothing for my memory. Also, I’m not trying to imply that I’m super famous or anything but some people even remember small details about me, like I used to like eating tauhu sumbat or I used to wear a certain kind of perfume. Like really small details…unworthy of being remembered. In one way, I feel flattered that these people still remember me, even after all these years. On the other hand, it bugs me that it’s not mutual…that my mind dismisses people and events from my memory like it only has 10kb capacity.

So people out there, if you see me and I don’t remember, please don’t take it to heart. I’m sure you were a significant part in my life. To those who I do remember, you guys must be pretty special, right? ;)

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Malaysia's Next Top Model

I haven't updated much on the girls. They're growing up so fast, I feel like I'm going to forget all the major accomplishments if I don't jot them down somewhere.

Here are the latest photos of Daria. I have no idea when but she's turned out to be such a cheeky little monkey. Best part of all, she can call me "ibu" now. Loud and clear. Emphasize on the loud.
So here's Her Majesty in all her current glory.
OK, first attempt to strut and pose failed because ibu didn't put on her sunglasses properly.
A little better, except the hair is ruffled and she's showing too much skin (muahahahahaaa..).
Ok, I can take off my sunglasses, right? You can feed me lunch now, right?
OK, OK, one last photo. Eat ya heart out Tyra...I'm smiling with my eyes!!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Bulan Puasa Pun Ada Jugak Buat Keje Macam Ni Ke?

Kekadang aku suka pi check akunya stats blog ni, especially tengok apa terms org gooogle sampai terjumpa blog aku.

Tapi kali ni macam aku tak puas hati sket.
Blog Bangang??!! Aku tau la blog aku tak seglamer mana, tapi takde la tahap bangang. Ke...sebab aku tulis perkataan Bangang tu besar2 dalam entri aku pasal mekanik bodoh tu? Maybe la kot...pikir baik..pikir baik.

Lagi satu..."aku ambik laki orang". Isy, isy, isy...punya banyak laki kat dunia ni, awat hang pi ambik laki orang? Hang tak kesian kah kat anak bini mamat tu? Kalau hang punya laki kena ambik, camne hang rasa? Mesti keciwa kan? Mesti marah kan? Bulan puasa ni dik..takyah pi dating2 ngan laki orang (dengar tu Jet!!)...banyakkan solat dan amalan mulia yang lain. Sekian.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

What A Relief!!

So I had my first mid term exam tonight. Peh...what stress that caused me. My insides went all haywire and I couldn't poop for 3 days (yeah, you can thank me for sharing). I got anxiety attacks looking at my notes so I stopped looking at them but still got attacks because I wasn't looking at them when I should be looking at it was a vicious cycle and in the end, I considered picking up a knife and just ending it there and then but then I remembered raya was on the way and my kids! who will take care of them? and...yeah, well you get the picture.

Anyhow, the exam went ok I guess. I know for sure I got one definition wrong (substituted definition of stress with ironic!) but then we had like a thousand of definitions to remember so I won't let getting one wrong bug me. Much. Ok, not thinking about it anymore. Hmmm...lalalalallalala....Damn it!! How can I get it wrong?!!! Grrrrr.....

The rest of the questions were ok, I guess. I spotted a few of the topics that might come out and THANK GOD they did. The exam lasted for 2 hours and I was writing feverishly the entire time. It's amazing I still have the energy to type. I really hope I get good marks because I really like this class (OB) and because the other classes I'm taking...yeah, not so much in the I-really-understand-what's-going-on department. 7 weeks of class and I'm still blur. Luckily for my other 2 classes, the exams will be in 2 weeks. I think. The lecturer's have still not confirmed. Hmmm...

Well, my energy level just went down so I guess I'll be turning in for the night. Oya, new maid just arrived tonight. So far, I haven't had time to get to know her much but she seems nice enough. We'll see.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Your Personality Revealed

I had forgotten about this so-called personality test due to all that's been happening until JAD reminded me in my last post. Ok, so here it goes.

Some of you (actually, only 2 people...muahahaha) have given your answers to my Phsycho test. Heee. Here are what the questions mean.

1) Think about your favorite colour and write down three adjectives describing that color.
The words you used to describe your favorite color is how you subconsciously see yourself.
My answer was Blue - calm, cooling, romantic. I have no comment other than calm??!! I can't remember the last time I was calm. And does one become cooling? Or should it read as cool? Because I'm definitely that...I'm the coolest Mom to walk Bangi ground. Just as my kids would agree. Heee.

MOTL said basically the same thing Blue - calm, cool and soothing., your husband must be one lucky guy :D.
JAD mentioned Red - bold, bright, pretty. Hehehehe...nice.

2)Think about your favorite animal and write down three words describing that animal.
The words used to desribe your favorite animal reveals how you think others see you.
My answer was Cat - aloof, independant, carefree. I would have to agree though I would like to be able to change people's perception of me being aloof. I am not a snob!! Carefree? Well, I try not to let the small things in life bother me much. Coz I'm cool, right?

MOTL said Cat - cute, cuddly and playful. I don't know if people calling me cuddly is a good thing...unless it's my husband or my kids. Other than that, cuddly could be interpreted as ...ehem...gedebab! Hehehe..
JAD put down giraffe: tall / elegant / thin. OK, I know JAD personally and she is no giraffe. Hahaha...ok la, bagi can...part elegant I will accept. :D

3) Now, think about an all white room. The walls are white, the floor is white, there is no sound in the room, no windows, everything is white. Now list three words to describe how that room makes you feel.
The words used to describe your feelings in a white room are how you subconsciously feel about your future.
My answer was - scary, quiet, alone. I need therapy. Stat!!

MOTL answered peaceful, lonely, dreamy. I think that would work well in an old folk's home. Hehehe..
JAD answered bored / sleepy / restless. I'm kind of worried for her....

4) Lastly, think about a body of water. Any body of water whether it's an ocean, river, stream whatever. List three words describing that body of water.
This one, well this one reveals how you like your sex.
My answer was Waterfall - refreshing, energizing, fast. Holy sex kitten-MILF-couger rolled into one!! I nearly fell off my chair when I saw what that question revealed. No comment...hahahahhaaa!

MOTL put down Ocean - endless, cool and exciting. Endless?!! Endless??!! Dasat!!
JAD replied waterfall = calm / serene / peaceful. I do not know that kind of sex...hahahaha..

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Ni Yang Buat Aku Was2 Nak Hantar Kereta Ke Mekanik Ni


Yang ko pi bawak kete customer kulu kilir tu sapa suruh?!! Suka2 je ambik kete orang bwk balik rumah. Apa, ko takde kete sendiri ke? Ke saja sebab nak merasa naik kereta "mewah" dengan free?

Dah jadi macam ni, sapa yang susah? Ko ada duit nak bayar balik kat customer tu? Customer tu dah takde kete nak pakai, ko bleh tolong? Ni dah nak raya ni wei...customer tu nak balik kampung naik apa? Unta?!! Bas?!!

Jangan la nak kelentong bagi alasan stereng kete tetiba tak berfungsi. Mesti ko yang bawak macam pelesit, lepas tu terbabas. Tengok condition kereta tu, mesti ko bawak laju punya. Apa ko tak patah riuk lak tulang ko? Setakat luka je...tak puas hati lak aku.

Terima kasih sebab berjaya buat aku bengang time tengah puasa ni. Eeeeee....aku lak tensen lebih2.

What Are You Doing Here?

Dina told me yesterday. But before she told me, she asked me not to get mad with her. O-oh, what did she do now?

It seems she didn’t do anything. She was walking outside with Daria and Enon last evening and she saw Bibik at one of the neighbor’s house. Huh? What was that woman doing here?

Enon asked her and bibik said she was on her day off. Hah!! On a Wednesday? Yeah, right. Anyway, Enon wasn’t too happy with Bibik, what with everything she had put us through, so she took the kids home right away.

What is she doing here? I have no desire to meet or see her again. The kids are doing ok now, why would she come here and kacau them?

Enon said, maybe she misses the kids. TOUGH LUCK!! She’s the one who deserted us in the middle of the night. I never threw her out.

I told the girls, if they ever see Bibik anywhere near the house, to not go near her or to talk to her. I don’t see the point. We’ve moved on, she should do the same.

But before she does, she should pay me the RM200 she owes me for her duit kutu!!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Tazkirah Hari Selasa

Since it is the fasting month, I figured this would be the best time to really stress on Dania and Dina the importance of prayer and doa. It's been a battle sometimes to get them to pray without me shouting, which I really despise because that's not how I intend to teach things to my daughters. So when a friend of mine passed me this email, I was very enthutiastic.


How to make your children pray on their own without a reminder or a quarrel.

My Daughter was 12 years old and prayer was like heavy burden on her , So I told her to pray one day and I monitored her. She took the carpet and threw it on the ground. I asked her have you prayed - she said yes - Believe me, without feeling I slapped her face - I know I made a mistake. The situation has troubled me and I cried and I repent to God to forgive me The slap, the talk , the reminders did not benefit with my child.

One day A friend told me told me story. She went to one of her friends for a visit. Her friend was not that of a religious person, but when the Adhan prayer was called, her children rushed for prayers without reminders or quarrel. I said to her how does your children pray on themselves without quarrel or a reminder? !!!!! -

She said I have nothing to tell you, but before I got married I supplicate this Dua and until today. After she advised me the supplication Dua – I began to recite it in every Sujud in my prayers before Tasleem and anytime I could .

Since I began to recite the supplication Dua my daughter is now the first to prayer without reminders or quarrels. She got up in Fajr prayers without any alarms. And all her brothers are now eager in praying without any difficulties.

Even my mother visited me once and went to sleep and I have to draw the attention to my daughter to wake us up. I know you are now eager to know this Supplication Dua .. The Supplication is in the Surae Ibrahim(14), ayah # 40 سُوۡرَةُ إبراهیم And Supplication is ...
رَبِّ اجْعَلْنِي مُقِيمَ الصَّلَاةِ وَمِن ذُرِّيَّتِي ۚ رَبَّنَا وَتَقَبَّلْ دُعَاءِ ﴿٤٠﴾

My lord! Make me keep up prayer and from my offspring (too); O! Our Lord, and accept my prayer (14:40)
*image taken from here

Monday, August 16, 2010

Ramadhan So Far

How has your Ramadhan gone so far? Mine has been hectic as usual. Macam tak puasa. MEMANG TAK POSA PUN!! Hahaha..ok not funny…I now have a minimum of 6 days to replace. Urghh…must get that out of the way ASAP.

Last Saturday, because of you-know-who is no longer around, hubby decided to take us all to the Pasar Ramdhan to buy food. We got mee goreng for the girls (fail!) and some roti john for myself (I give 2.5 marks out of 5). Hubby bought some ikan percik and sayur pucuk ubi, which cost bloody RM8. RM8 for a small fish and vege!! Pucuk ubi lak tu!! Huh…

Because Pasar Ramadhan was such a bust, on Sunday I decided to cook. However, I had a group discussion at the Uni around 430pm so before I went, I prepared all the stuff to cook and then headed out. The discussion took longer than I expected (grrrr…) so I drove like mad getting back home. Tengok2, hubby pi beli lauk lak. Cet!! So in the end, i just made my special eggs (benedict…NOT!) and sawi in oyster sauce.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

The Story of The Cracked Pot

I received this via email from one of my professors. It made me think...and smile. I hope it does the same for you.


A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung on each end of a pole, which he carried across his neck. One of the pots had a crack in it; and while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water at the end of the long walk from the stream to the master's house, the cracked pot arrived only half full.

For two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots of water to his master's house. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect to the end for which it was made.

But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you."
"Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?"

"I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said.

The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path."

Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this cheered it some. But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again it apologized to the bearer for its failure.

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of your path, but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."
Moral: Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are, and look for the good in them.

Fesyen Muslimah Terbaru Kah?

This was taken during one of our makan2 sessions, the day before puasa. My staff treated the team. I was trying to be very discreet taking the photo. I need to learn from Famil on how to take better candid photos using my handphone.

Wearing headgear + tight shirt +mini skirt + leggings?

Fesyen Muslimah terbaru kah?

Menutup aurat kah itu?

Aku yang tak up-to-date ngan trend sekarang ke?

Ntah la, takmo komen banyak2. Aku dulu pun, time muda mudi, teringin nak pakai skirt2 pendek macam ni tapi dek peha aku gemuk gedabak, lupakan je lah niat tu kan. Bagus gak, kalau tak...aku pakai macam ni, En Rashid kata aku buang tebiat apa!! Silap2 kena ban dari kluar rumah.

This Is Just For Bacon Lover

Just to bring you up to date....

Bibik ran away last Thursday night. Reason: we suspect because of the fight (fight is such a big word...more like misunderstanding) she had with hubby the previous weekend.

Since she's been gone (why do I hear Kelly Clarkson when I typed that?), it's been chaos at Casa Along but we've managed so far.

The kids have been great except the 1st few days, Daria wouldn't eat, Dania wouldn't stop crying and Dina wouldn't talk.

But everyone's doing better now.

Here's hoping we find a better replacement soon.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

1st Day of Ramadhan

Puasa tahun ni macam tak best. Sebab pertama, aku period semalam, so sah2 orang dah start puasa, aku still beraya. Raya apa? Hungry ghost kot. Sebab kedua, malam ni team aku ada presentation. Accounts lak tu. Subjek yang paling aku tak paham, dan asyik buat2 paham je time kelas. Sebab ketiga, bibik dah takde. Maleh nak cite lebih panjang hal tu.

Apa2 pun, aku hoping Ramadhan ni akan membuat aku rasa lebih tenang, lebih bersyukur, lebih dekat pada Allah.

Selamat berpuasa kepada semua umat Islam.

Ps: Sekarang aku suka taip entri dalam BM lak. Sori la pada foreign readers aku (sorang je rasanya). Nanti aku speaking balik yer.

Monday, August 09, 2010


Dengan diri sendiri.

Hari ini aku berjaya masak, sapu rumah bahagian bawah, mop dapur, tidokan Daria 2 kali, make sure anak2 aku ok ke sekolah sambil menyiapkan assignment yang due arini.

Come on, umur dah 34 tahun...kalau takleh handle house work memang parah la!!

Tapi aku sket lagi nak nangis bila tengok kain baju bertimbun tak gosok, memikirkan bahagian atas rumah blum settle, baju2 yang dah kering blum lipat, diri aku sendiri yang blum mandi eventho dah kul 2pm dah!!

Si kaklong basuhkan pinggan mangkuk tadi lepas makan pun, hampir nak buat aku meleleh. Pandai anak aku...dah tau, sekarang kita sendiri2...kena la pull each other's weight.

Apa2 pun, aku still mengharap bibik lama aku balik, walaupun aku tau chance tu memang slim. According to maid ibu aku, bibik dah dok Subang...maybe dah dapat keje lain pun. Ah, lantak la. Yang aku dok pikir hal dia lagi nak buat apa. Baik save sel2 otak aku untuk pikir hal anak2 ni.

Semalam pi jumpa agen, dah letak deposit untuk maid baru. Hmm...berdoa la agar yang baru ni ok macam yg dulu. En Rashid pun, aku kena bagitau...jangan ikutkan baran sangat lain kali. Kan semua dah susah. Walaupun hal bergaduh haritu maybe just a small factor, tapi membagi sebab la jugak si bibik tu nak blah.

Dah Long, dah....lupakan yang dulu. One day at a time.

Baik aku pi mandi sementara adik ngan Kakngah tengah tido.

Thursday, August 05, 2010

Pergi Sudah

Bibik aku dah lari.

Tengah malam tadi kot. Time aku masuk tido kul 12 tu, dia ada lagi. Time anak2 aku bangun nak pi sekolah dah takde.

Aku pun tak paham. Kitaorang dah layan cukup baik pun still buat macam ni. Kalau aku ngan En Rashid je, aku takde la kisah sangat. Tapi anak2 aku ni...yang dah anggap dia macam mak ke2? Nak2 si kenit...tercarik2 dia tadi bibik gemuk dia tu.

Time aku sedar dia dah takde, aku tak panik. Benda2 macam ni...ntah la, aku dah tau, kalau aku panik pun tak guna. Aku terus siapkan sarapan bebudak tu, lepas tu kejutkan abg. Nampak la muka abang terkejut. Bersalah pun mungkin ye la.

Aku terus sms bos, mintak EL. Explain apa dah jadi. Dia pun terkejut, bukan ok ke bibik aku ni? Ntah la...o.k ke, k.o. ke...dia dah takde. Sekarang tumpuan aku dah ke anak2. Sms lak ibu aku. Dia pun terus call. Agak syahdu lak nada orang tua tu. Jangan nangis la..kang aku jugak yang tumpah airmata ni kang. Ibu aku bagitau, takpe..kejap lagi dia mai, tengokkan kitaorang.

Yang bestnya, cik abg patut nak ke Bandung arini. Aku cakap, pi la...benda dah plan lama..lagipun dia stay sini, bukan bibik tu muncul secara majik. Lagi elok kalau dia pi, bawak balik bibik lain untuk aku terus. Hahahhaa...bibik yerrr...jangan bini #2 sudah!!

Dari aku melayan kepala aku yang dah mula serabut, aku pun start buat kerja rumah. Mandikan si Daria, keluarkan barang2 nak masak. Si Kaklong ngan KakNgah dah selamat pi sekolah. Apa2 pun, agenda bebudak mesti tetap jalan. Sambil tunggu ayam aku defrost, aku jenguk la bilik bibik.

Kain baju dah takde..tinggal la sket lagi dalam laci dia. Handbag dia satu je dia bawak. Makeup2 dia semua pun takde. Barang2 pinggan mangkuk yang dia dah beli pun dah takde bawah katil.

Dek banyak gak barang dah takde, aku syak la ada orang tolong dia lari. Takkan bleh dia angkut semua baju dia, pinggan mangkuk lagi sorang2. Tengah2 malam lak tu. Apa2 je la...

Around kul 11pagi, ibu aku pun sampai. Siap mai ngan lauk semua. Padahal aku dah masak ayam masak kicap, telur dadar ngan sayur masak sos tiram. Terror gak aku masak, walaupun jarang2 sekali. Ibu aku tanya, camne? Camne camne...camtu la. Nak cakap apa lagi yek.

Aku cite la balik..agak2 penyebab bibik lari. Sebelum kitaorang balik melaka minggu lepas, abg ajak bibik balik sama. Dia refuse, konon nak kemas rumah. Abg terus ngamuk la, cakap bibik nak pi merayau, nak bawak orang masuk rumah. Ok cop, hal dia bawak orang masuk rumah memang betul. Aku pernah kantoikan dia sekali. Kawan bibik dia jugak la..setaman. Aku pantang dua benda je, handphone ngan bawak orang masuk rumah. Tapi hal tu aku dah sound dah bibik, dia pun dah minta maaf, cakap takkan buat lagi.

Bila cik abg aku ni ungkit balik benda tu, bibik pun panas la..menjawab. Satu kesilapan besar la kalau menjawab ngan En Rashid ni...terus menjadi perang bertekak jugak la antara depa berdua. Time tu aku kat atas, tengah kemas beg nak balik Melaka. Aku pun cepat2 turun, cuba la redakan keadaan. In the end, masa kitaorang berangkat nak pi tu, bibik tengah nangis kat dapur sambil menyapu. Aku bagitau bibik, "dah la...bapak memang camtu, cakap kasar sket, tapi bibik jangan ambik hati. Taknak balik Melaka takpe, bibik rehat je la minggu ni, tenangkan fikiran." Sambil nangis tu, dia angguk2 jugak la.

Time kitaorang kat Melaka, aku dah agak risau la, ntah ada ke tidak lagi bibik aku bila balik nanti. Kitaorang balik ke rumah Ahad petang..aku tengok dia tengah duduk kat taman. Alhamdulillah...

Sejak tu, kitaorang layan dia macam biasa. Takde la mengungkit benda berperang tu. Aku tengok dia dengan bebudak pun macam normal jugak, sayang2 gitu. So memang aku dah assume la semua dah back to normal and takde lagi nak berlaku incident macam aritu lagi.

Itu hari Ahad. Ni dah hari Khamis. Kenapa la dia tunggu 4 hari then baru decide nak lari? Aku dah bagitau dia, kalau dia takmo kerja, cakap je la...aku akan hantar dia balik ke rumah agen dengan elok. Camne aku terima dia dulu, camtu la jugak cara aku nak pulangkan dia. Aku tak kejam la...aku rasa aku majikan yang paling releks sekali. Hal2 nak paksa orang kerja ngan kita, not my style.

Petang tadi dia call hp ibu aku. Menangis2 mintak maaf. Ibu aku cakap, "bukan dengan saya patut minta maaf. Kalau bibik takmo kerja, kenapa tak bagitau dengan cara baik? Kenapa cara macam ni?" Dia kata, dia takut abg hantar dia balik Indon. Laaaaa...apahal lak kitaorang nak halau dia. Kitaorang lagiiiiii lega tengok dia still ada masa balik from Melaka aritu. Ibu aku bagitau la, "cara bibik ni cara orang tak berhati perut. Bibik kata sayangkan bebudak ni, tapi sanggup tinggalkan diaorang macam tu aje." Bibik kata bukan niat dia.

Lepas ibu aku dah habis cakap, bibik minta cakap ngan aku lak (tau lak dia ibu ada kat rumah aku). Same story la...minta maaf, takut kena hantar balik. Aku bagitau dia, "bibik, kami orang takde dendam ngan bibik. Kalau bibik still nak keje ngan kami, balikla. Kita lupakan apa dah berlaku. Sekarang ni keputusan di tangan bibik." Bibik cakap dia kena pikir dulu. Aku bagitau la, "saya takleh tunggu pikir lelama...camne pun, saya kena usahakan carik pengganti sebab memang memerlukan." Bibik cakap dia paham.

Aku takde la memujuk sangat, cuba aku bagitau la yang aku risau jugak la dia keluar tu, tangan kosong. Duit dia ada kat aku lagi, tak banyak la...cukup aku nak bayarkan giliran kutu dia je pun. Rupanya barang2 pinggan mangkuk dia semua, dia dah jualkan kat kawan dia. Dapat RM400. Padahal dia beli ada dekat 6-7 ratus kot. Aku tak tau la dia jual kamera dia, cincin emas dia sekali ke. Ntah la...itu keputusan dia la.

Last2 dia mintak maaf lagi sekali kat aku, minta halalkan makan minum dia. Itu aku cakap, memang dah lama aku halalkan. Sebagai majikan, itu memang tanggungjawab aku untuk sediakan. Cuma aku terkilan dia tinggalkan keluarga kitaorang ngan cara macam ni, sedangkan 2 tahun dah sayang sangat aku and the girls ngan dia. Aku tau, deep down, dia sangat rindukan anak2 aku...nak2 si kenit tu. Ye la...jaga sejak keluar dari perut. Time siang, asyik berkepit je berdua. Kalau tak teriang2 muka anak2 aku, maybe memang dah tetap la hati bibik aku nak belah dari rumah kitaorang.

Walau camne pun, aku memang terhutang budi ngan bibik aku. Walaupun memang aku gajikan dia tapi banyak benda yang dia buat memang above and beyond duty dia. Time dia jaga aku masa aku teruk tengah pregnant ngan Daria. Masa kitaorang kecoh2 nak pindah ke Bangi, dia yang tolong pack2kan semua benda. Masa aku bersalinkan Daria, dia masak sedap2 untuk aku, jaga baby aku ngan sempurna. Masa bebudak ni sakit, dia yang make sure semua makan ubat on time. Hal rumah, hal bebudak memang tip top. Sebab tu aku sayangkan dia, dan sebab tu aku terkilan sangat. Dah 2 tahun dia dengan kitaorang, dah lebih macam keluarga dah. Dah pi travelling sesama..hal aku start balik sekolah pun, dia sokong.

Adeh, airmata aku nak start leleh la plak menaip hal ni. Bohong la kalau aku kata aku tak risau. Pengganti tu memang bleh carik, tapi nak carik yang elok bukan senang. Aku dah siap planning dah aritu, tahun depan nak bagi dia balik sebulan...then balik kerja ngan kitaorang again. Every year aku nak bagi dia balik, kalau dia nak.

Tapi dah jadi camni, nak buat camne yer. Take it one day at a time la. Mujurla bleh pinjam maid ibu aku kejap. Insya'allah sabtu ni nak pi jumpa agen, nak tengok kot la ada yang bleh mai keje ngan kitaorang. Hal duit tu, tolak ketepi la. Korek la ASB kalau perlu.

Korang doakan la bibik aku lembut hati and balik keje ngan kitaorang balik. Takpun, doakan kitaorang dapat pengganti yang ok.

Also doakan bibik aku yang tengah sorang2 kat luar tu.

Mana dia tido malam ni agaknya?