Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Karaoke & Pancakes

Today I went for a girls' day out with my posse. After being so sick for so many weeks, it felt really good to be able to venture outside of the house and meet up with my favorite gals. The event was a special tribute to one of our members, Akish, who was leaving Malaysia to join her hubby in Dubai.

To commemorate our long lasting friendship, we decided to go crazy and spend 3 hours at a karaoke session. I had never been before so I was a bit sceptical at the whole deal. But once I got there, hehehe...let's just say Kelly Clarkson doesn't hold a flame to my singing skills!! We sang song after song after song, most of them from the 80's and 90's, just as a reminder of how long we had been there for each other. In the end, we all had so much fun that 3 hours wasn't nearly enough.

After that, we headed for more food. Lunch had been served at the karaoke place but it wasn't enough for my appetite. Heee. So Noresh suggested we try out the new pancake restaurant since we wanted someplace nice and quiet to fill our tummies and share gossips and stories.

After eating, we all headed back home but not before we bought Akish a nice Coach keychain for her to take to Dubai.

It was a short getogether but eventhough I was dead tired by the time I got home, I look forward to our next outing. Akish, we shall all miss you so much. Keep in touch and take care. Love you and God bless.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Moment of Truth

I was watching this reality show previously when the contestant was asked the following question.

" Do you feel that your mom abandoned you during your pregnancy?"

She answered "Yes" to which the female computer confirmed "That answer is TRUE."


Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Good Night, Sleep Tight

Last Monday I had my 18th week checkup. 18 weeks!! Still not at the half way line but getting there. Think positive!!

So far, everything looks ok. Baby is doing fine, rather active actually. I can already feel it kicking and somersaulting inside. Because of my previous history, the doctor did thorough scanning and tests. So far, brain, spine, femur, head all look and measure as they should. Can't say I'm not relieved.

I did however complain to my doctor about my insomnia. I told here I had tried various other methods of getting some sleep; hot cocoa, classical music, reading, but nothing seems to work. I hadn't gotten any sleep for 2 weeks and was making me into a basket case. So after much consultation from her other doctor friend, she finally prescribed me a low dosage of Xanax.

I told hubby about this and as expected, he freaked out. Hubby hates me taking any kind of drugs, especially during pregnancy. So for the first night, I once again tried to fall asleep naturally.

12 midnight came and went and I was still awake.

1am came and went and I was still awake, getting restless by the minute.

Finally at 2am, I woke hubby up. "I can't sleep so I'm going to take that d#*m pill." I doubt he even heard me.

And it worked. I don't know if it's more of a physiological effect but I was snoozing within 30 minutes of taking the pill. Unfortunately because I had taken it at such a late time, I was still groggy by morning. So I slept in and arrived at work late.

Last night, I took the pill at 11pm and finally...FINALLY was able to get 7 hours of sleep. Ahhh, heaven.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

I Heart Youtube

I upgraded my blog template. The layout looks a bit funny, especially the header but it will have to do for now. Maybe when I’m in the mood, I’ll tweak around with the layout some more. I lost some of the gadgets from my previous template like my Shoutbox and various links. Luckily I saved the old template’s coding so maybe I can still salvage those. Also, since Blogrolling has been down for some time, I decided to just use Bloggers’ bloglist widget. I think I’m still missing a few blogs though. If you find that your blog is no longer on my Blogger’s Delight list, please let me know.

I added a few widgets, like the Follower’s list (baru sorang…hehehehe) and a music playlist. Konon nak bagi nampak funky la tu. Excuse the Mandy Moore song but ever since I watched A Walk To Remember (courtesy of youtube), the song has been playing in my head again and again. I rather like it plus Mandy Moore can actually sing. And actually the movie isn’t all that bad. Kind of predictable (teenage romance and all) but still quite sad at the end.

Speaking of youtube, that site was my salvation during my resting period at home. It’s amazing how many movies I got to watch (for free!!). I was able to watch Misery (finally…I had been trying to see that movie like forever!!), Brokeback Mountain (heh…), all 3 films about Anne of Green Gables, Penelope, Atonement, Suicide Club and a few more I can’t recall.

Misery – fabulous!! Kathy Bates as Annie Wilkes is dead on!! Totally Oscar worthy. James Caan’s performance was not too shabby either. I cringed during the infamous “sledgehammer scene”…Oh My God!!! I love Stephen King’s books and I thought this movie was a good representation of it, eventhough they did change a number of scenes to suit movie goers. Go see it!

Brokeback Mountain – ok I admit, I watched it because I was curious know, the whole gay cowboy thingy. Turns out it wasn’t that big of a deal; the “scene” was kind of shot in the dark to begin with and you don’t actually see much. I did think the whole premise of the story, being about forbidden love and all was quite sad. I would say go watch it if you love movies with beautiful scenery and heavy moral issues. Oh, just to entice the guys, you get to see Anne Hathaway topless. Heeee…man, that girl sure “developed” alright.

Anne of Green Gables – this was one of my most favorite films when I was a teenager. Like all the girls my age at that time, I fell in love with Gilbert Blythe. Man, was he good looking! Plus I also loved Anne Shirley and her funny antics. The two follow up films were also very good but showed too little of Gilbert, in my opinion.

Penelope – This movie is rather recent so I was surprised to see it available on youtube. I was interested in it because it had James McAvoy in it. Heee. However, the movie was rather nice too. I thought Christina Ricci looked cute with a pig snout. Haha.

Atonement – again, James McAvoy. And Heather, you were right. The movie was kind of boring but I kind of cried at the ending. I blame my hormones. Hah.

Suicide Club – This is a Japanese Horror that I had heard about a few months back. Even with the subtitles, I didn’t actually understand the whole movie. If anything, just watch it for the gory suicide scenes. And believe me, they are rather gory.

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Willing It To Be Better

I took another week off from work on advice from my boss and also my own body. This HG has been so unpredictable lately, I can't tell if I'm going to be ok or not the next day.

But I don't want to write about the misery of pregnancy because reading my past (five? six?) posts, it's like DUDE, WE GET IT. BEING PREGNANT SUCKS!! So instead of going on and on about how tired I am all the time or how my eating habits are based on what tastes good coming back up instead of going down (note: NOTHING tastes good coming back up, except sweet candy), I'm going to write about it for only a few paragraphs. And then that's it. Really. Promise. No more pregnancy rants after this.

Eventhough I've been able to eat every now and then, that constant feeling that I've ate too much is always there. Even after like hours after eating, I feel like nothing actually went down but just stayed in my throat area. Sudden movements by myself or others around me makes me gag. Yawning makes me gag. Sneezing makes me gag. It's only will power and the extreme despair of seeing food go to waste that's keeping me from surrendering and heading for the toilet.

Hubby says it's because I don't eat enough, which maybe true if not for the fact that eating seems to be the major cause for my nauseousness. I feel good during the process of eating but 2 minutes after and I'm like kicking myself for having that slice of bread or drinking that cup of hot cocoa. Does that mean I need to constantly be eating? It's times like this that I envy the cow; able to munch away at grass for hours on end. But then they have four stomachs whereas I only have one. And it's not all that big to begin with either.

This constant tired feeling I have is the biggest bugger. It sucks when my mind keeps thinking of all the things I need to do and all the people that depend on me but my body can't comply. Luckily the girls have been super understanding, but still I can tell they miss our "adventurous girls" time together. I've been able to interact more with them without getting too tired; previously even smiling for them was such a chore. Now we spend most of our time together in front of the idiot box watching cartoons which maybe not all that great but still at least I can be close to them. Dina loves to say hello to the baby every now and then, which kind of reminds me that I'm pregnant and not just "sick". I'm sick for a reason, WITH a reason so all those negative thoughts I've been thinking for the past nine weeks should cease immediately. I've been through worst and survived.

Having said that, I do not enjoy being pregnant. If a genie suddenly appeared in front of me and granted me one wish, it would be for me to be like J.Lo, Jessica Alba, Angelina Jolie and all those other pregnant, happy, fabulous, glowing-with-motherly-aura celebrities I've tortured myself to look at everyday. But alas, I am not one of those people. I cannot connect or relate to a pregnant woman who says she's so happy to be pregnant and being pregnant is the best time of her life and she wishes she was pregnant all the time. I wish I could. Instead I'm the one who gets to relate being pregnant with constant nausea, vomiting, constipation, fainting spells, acne, extra dry skin, cramps, and all the aches and pains you can get while pregnant.

Blaa. This rant has gone on long enough. And while there is so much more I wish to get off my chest, I feel that this is enough for my blog. The last thing I would want is for my future child to read this and come up to me only to ask "So did you even want me?"

So let me state it loud and clear right here. Dear Baby, eventhough I'm going through hell right here and eventhough there are times that I may wish that it was all over, at the end of the day I realise the blessing that has been placed on our family. And eventhough I may not think so now, I know that in the future, I'll look back at this period of my life, then set my eyes on you and know, with all the love in my heart, that it was totally worth it.