Monday, October 16, 2006

Time for a Change?

I’m at a point of my life where I feel I need to make a change. Work wise, that is. I’ve tried to apply for different positions but I guess unless I get someone else to take my place, I’m pretty much stuck where I am until eternity.

I’ve been complementing my next move. The way I see it, I have several options, all with their pros and cons.

1. I could quit and get a job elsewhere.
Pros: New challenges. Hopefully better income. Better job satisfaction.
Cons: I’ll have a huge debt to pay to my current employee. Most probably I’ll need to buy another car if the job is somewhere other than where I work currently.

2. I could take study leave and do my Masters.
Pros: A change of pace. I’ll be at home more with the kids. Mom and Dad have been bugging me to do my Masters since forever so maybe this would make them happy. A Masters would make me more eligible for a manager’s post and perhaps more valuable.
Cons: Lost of income for at least a year. I’ll still be bonded. Plans for a baby next year might have to be postponed.

I’ve been thinking about option 2. I even printed out the Chevening Scholarship Application form. What are the chances I might get it? From what I’ve heard, the competition for the scholarship is pretty tough. Only 30 people selected every year. They pay for everything but they don’t give any family allowances. If I get to do my Masters in the UK, I may have to go alone. I think I can survive a year without hubby and the kids. What am I thinking…I wouldn’t last a week, what more a year.

So what to do?

My original plans for 2007 were to get pregnant, hopefully get a better position in the company and buy a new car. Going to the UK for my Masters would totally chance all this.

I’m going to take a leap of faith. I’m going to apply for the scholarship.

Wish me luck.


Anonymous said...

Along, fata here . same thing goes here. Apa nak buat. Good luck. Been thinking of applying too but as you said the thought of being away from the kids+ hubby make my stomach sick.

ann said...

go for it