I'll Take A Big Cup of Confidence To Go Please

After making up my mind yesterday about what I intend to do next in my life, I felt slightly better. That was until I researched the amount of work I had to do just to apply and qualify for the scholarship.

I need to do the following:

Write a letter to my former lecturer or university counselor for a Letter of Reference
This may prove tricky coz it’s been 6 years since I graduated from Vanderbilt. I can hardly remember what my guidance counselor looks like what more his name. I can bet you he would have no idea who I am if I were to request for a Letter of Reference out of the blue. Furthermore, when I was still studying there, my guidance counselor had a series of serious heart attacks. Truth be told, I hardly think he’s still teaching. A slight afterthought thinks he might have passed on, but I’m not one to speculate such a tragic matter. I could ask for a Letter of Reference from that dude who campaigned for my employer to send students to the University in the first place. I think he’s still with Vanderbilt. I hope he remembers me enough to write something positive. Damn, I knew I should have sent a few checks to the Alumni for good face!!

Write a letter to my General Manager for a Letter of Reference
Seeing how my GM has only been here for a month, I think it would be best to ask for the letter from my former GM. She and I are on a first name basis; at least she knows me well enough to call me by my nickname here. Problem is, she’s probably super busy or already has left for her Raya holidays. Knowing here, she likes to take loooonng holidays, so it might be a while before she’s back in the office. To be on the safe side, maybe I could ask for a Letter of Reference from my immediate boss. All the websites I’ve researched have advised to inset a template of such Letter of Reference so that the referrer has some idea on what to write. I don’t know, that sounds rather tacky to me. Like I’m asking them to toot my horn for me or something.

Figure out what course I want to take.
At first, I thought this would be easy, just apply to do an MBA. Then I found out that thousands of people apply for MBAs and the competition is fierce!! Best bet would be to apply for a course that not many people would consider, like Engineering (yawn!!!). But then I found out that you have to select your course carefully because once you’ve been selected for the scholarship, you’re pretty much stuck with the course you wrote down. It’s possible to change Universities but not possible to change courses. I guess they have quotas for the number of people that qualify for the scholarship for different types of courses.

Figure out which Universities I’m interested in applying to.
Again, this has proven to be quite a daunting task. Did you know there are thousands of really good Universities in the UK? This includes Scotland and Ireland of course, which all of a sudden sounds like such romantic places to be. Anyway, my reliable sources have told me to just apply to as many Universities as possible but make sure I put down at least one good (high ranked, well-known) University as my top choice. Obvious choices would be Oxford and Cambridge but even the name of those Universities make my stomach rumble in fear.

Confidence Along, confidence!!!

Then of course, if I get short listed for the interview, there’s the interview itself. I’ve never done so well at interviews; I tend to ramble of lots of non-essential information, just to fill up the void of silence. Most often when I look back on my previous interviewing experiences, I cringed inwardly like how someone would do so if Jack Nicholson tried to steal a kiss. I must remember to keep my answers nice and short. Do not volunteer information unless requested to. DO NOT TRY TO BE FUNNY. Unless of course the interviewer tells a joke, then maybe I could reciprocate with a better one. Hahaha…DO NOT TRY TO UPSTAGE THE INTERVIEWER.

Most importantly, DO NOT FIDGET AROUND AND PLAY WITH MY NIPPLE WHEN I GET NERVOUS.

Say it with me: Confidence Along, confidence!!!


I really should get back to my research. I hope to send in my requests for Letters of References by this week. Hopefully the more I research this matter, the less my boobie will itch in the future.