Saturday, May 31, 2008

A Birthday Note to Dania Jazmin - 6 Years Old

My Dearest Dania,

Today you turned six years old. Six!! How time flies. A part of me still wants to see you as my little girl that will always be by my side yet everyday you show signs of Independence, realising my fear and astonishment that you are now a big girl.

Because of the school holidays, we had your birthday party a couple of weeks earlier. Your wish for a Princess Themed party came true and I'm so happy that it all turned out well for you. It wouldn't have been possible if not for the support from our family and friends, who all joined in the celebration of your happiest day of the year. Thank you to your wan for sponsoring the food, thank you to your maksu, pakngah and auntie Zaiti for being the gamemasters, thank you to your paklang for being the unpaid photographer (hehehe), thank you to all your friends for coming and joining in the activities and games and for bringing such wonderful presents for you to enjoy.

A huge shoutout would also have to go to Auntie Noresh for making such a wonderful cake. Seeing your eye light up at the sight of the massive castle cake really made my day. Your smile lit up the room and you contagious laughter was music to my ears. Thank you for being such a wonderful princess and for making your day all about family and friends too.

Today, as your birthday treat, abah took us to the Rabbit Farm in Semenyih. When we arrived there, you and your sister whooped with joy when you all saw the cute rabbits hopping in the pen yard. It took a few minutes for the rabbits to get acquainted with you but before long, you had them eating out of your hand, literally. You were amazed at their soft fur and wobbly noses and continued to pestered me and abah to buy you one of your own.
Seeing how gently you handled the rabbits at the pen yard, maybe that wouldn't be such a bad idea but would have to wait until we move to our new house. So soon my little princess, you may have your bunny to call you own, to play with and hopefully find lots of good memories and love to give and receive.

Dearest Buttercup,

Words cannot express at how proud I feel everytime I look at you. School has been very good for you this year, even with the added on workload. In fact you've thrived beyond our expectations, which just goes to show how much of your mother you take after. Hehe. I love the fact that you always have a funny story waiting for me when I come home, about your friends at school and what you guys did together. It pleases me that you have nice friends and that your teachers love you too. I must be doing something right.

I hope you can forgive me for being super busy this year. With work and the new spa, our time together has been limited and I can only hope this is temporary. Please don't ever think that anything could ever be more important to me than you and your sister. Please know that what I'm doing now is so that our family will be more easy off in the long run. I promise to make this up to you. I promise to make our time together more meaningful.

Because the truth of the matter is, you're growing up so quickly; next year you'll be in primary school, before I know it you'll be heading off to University and getting married and moving away from me. I realise there is nothing I can do to stop this so as a mother that loves you so dearly, my gift to you would be to prepare you for your live ahead, by giving you guidance and love and support.

Sometimes I think writing you a note once a year is not enough. There are too many memories I want to hold on to, to many things I want to tell you. So many things I want to thank you for because if anything, you are my pillar of strength. You may not know it now but there have been times when your abah and I have been so down and sad, yet then you come along and tell us a story or a joke and make us laugh and suddenly everything is alright again. That is your superpower, your ability to make the sun shine bright in our lives. And for that, I can never thank you enough.
Thank you for bringing us six years of joy, happiness and love. Thank you for all the smiles, hugs and kisses. Thank you for all the "I love You" whispers before bedtime and upon waking up.
Most of all, thank you for being my daughter. For all my faults and weaknesses, I must be doing something right if I have you as my daughter.

Happy sixth birthday, Manja.

Love, Ibu.