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Lilypie - Fourth Birthday

Lilypie - Kids Birthday

Lilypie - Kids Birthday

Thursday, September 22, 2005

As JD Sang..You Can't Always Get What You Want

JD Fortune is the new singer for INXS. Ah bein. My dear MiG got 3rd place. I knew he shouldn’t have sung Bohemian Rhapsody. But I still love him. And his FABULOUS body. :D

My project scheduled for the 20th went on without any major glitches. I really must learn not to fret over minor details too much. Alas, the downside of being a perfectionist, which I am not, so it may just mean that I DO go crazy once in a while.

I love doing events and I get such a rush when they’re successful but I hate the fact the work keeps me in the office for so long and I miss the few precious hours I have to spend with the kids before they go to bed.

I’ve been doing some calculations. The girls usually wake up at 7am. They play together, and then they wake me up at 7.15am. I spend 15 minutes playing with them, and then send them downstairs so I can get ready for work. I get out of the house at 8am and if I’m really lucky I get back around 6pm. Dina goes to bed around 9pm but in between those 3 hours, I take time to bathe, pray and have dinner so average time actually spent with her is around 2 hours. Since I’ve stopped breastfeeding Dina, she doesn’t wake up in the middle of the night anymore. Dania usually goes to bed around 9.30-10pm, so I have a little bit more quality time with her.

Still....

15 minutes + 2 hours + ...... argh, that’s it!!! 2 hours and 15 minutes a day spent with my babies. That’s like only 9.4% of the day spent with them.

You know what kills me? The fact that Nisa, my maid, gets to spend more time with the kids than I do.

I know this is the cost for being a working mom and I’ve told myself many, many times that I’m ok with it, but sometimes...sometimes, I really wonder if I’m doing the best for my kids. I want them to be happy, I want them to be healthy and I want to be able to buy stuff for them. And we wouldn’t be able to do that if we were to become a single income family. So I guess this is for the best.

Weekends are when hubby and I try to make up for all those “lost” hours. I plan all those trips to the Aquaria, Petting Zoo and other places because of that. We take the kids shopping, go out for lunch or take them to my parents’ house.

And you know what. Yesterday, Dina was being rather moody and Nisa went to pick her up but she refused to be picked up instead she crawled over to me. ME!!! The person who carried her in my womb for 9 months!! So what if I only spend 2.25 hours with her a day, she still loves me and still prefers me to all other existence in the world. YEAH!!!

Suddenly I’m not feeling so bad.

4 comments:

sity29 said...

wow... bestnya feeling tuh.. :)
penat semua ilang ek

Kampung Gal said...

those feelings are normal for working moms

Woohoo JD won! Do note that Mig went out the first round. He should've gone out instead of Suzie but I think Inxs doesn't want to embarass him by kicking him out the first time he's in the bottom three ;)

Krissy said...

Ah, I'm familiar with that feeling. Only I've learned to accept that Charlie is most certainly better off with me working. It's not Charlie that needs me to stay home with him, it's ME!

So I go to work and know that he's just fine and happy and playing and learning and that I'm focusing on something other than his adorable face. Which means that he can actually take it when I focus all my burning attention on his delicious, delicious babycheeks.

MMMMMmmmmmmmmmm babycheeks.

Zaza said...

happy 1st birthday little girl.. :)