When All She Wants Is Her Mother

Last weekend the family went back to Melaka for a wedding and my SIL's boy's 1st birthday. It was the first time we went back without bibik. Bibik gave reason to stay behind and take care of the laundry that had piled up so high due to it raining everyday. I was fine with the idea since it was only for one day anyway.

We arrived in Melaka around 12pm and went straight to the wedding for lunch. Daria was such a darling; even in the hot weather, she was smiling all the way. The food was good and the crowd was almost non-existent, so we all gobbled down happily. After filling our tummies, we headed back to my in-laws.

Around 5pm, I put Daria down for a nap and then headed to Carref00re with hubby to buy some groceries. As we were on our way back, my MIL called; Daria was crying...no, screaming her lungs out. Apparently when she woke up, she got confused and when she couldn't find me, she freaked out and started crying.

When we arrived at our in-laws, my MIL was carrying Daria and trying to console her. Clad only in a towel, my poor girl was beside herself. When she saw me, she grabbed me and held on for life. It took me 30 minutes to quiet her down and stop her crying.

Until yesterday, she wouldn't let me out of her sight. When her grandma or aunts tried to carry her, she would start crying and searching for me.

Dear Daria. Please don't fret. I would never leave you eventhough I can not always be there physically for you.

David vs Goliath

A meager manager up against a VP in a heated meeting. 10 people talking at once, trying to make their point. Results of 3 months of hard work, looked down on by the vultures above.

Result? Everyone came out bloody and tired...with no clear winner.

Another round proceeds tonight..with more nights to come.

Let's get ready to rumble!!!!

Purest of Pain

This song used to be one of my favorites during Uni years. At that time, I was dating hubby and my room mates can stand witness to the fact, we sometimes had a turbulent relationship.

Everytime we had one of our fights, I would sit in my room, switch off all the lights and listen to this song over and over again. Talk about torturing yourself!!!

But I still love this song for its lyrics and beautiful melody.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=giJyPTQG9Cg

*Youtube wouldn't let me embed the video here so just follow the link


Sorry didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it
And so I surrendered, just to hear your voice.

Don't know how many times I said I'm gonna live without you,
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you,
But there's something, baby that you need to know.

That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you,It's all that I'm asking.

Chorus:
Baby, give me back my fantasy.
The courage that I need to live,The air that I breathe.
Living without you, my world's become so empty.
The days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better everyday
That it didn't hurt when you walked away
But to tell that truth I can't find my way

And deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you, It's all that I'm asking.

Baby, give me back my fantasy.
The courage that I need to live,The air that I breathe.
Living without you, my world's become so empty.
The days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain.

Baby, give me back my fantasy.
The courage that I need to live,The air that I breathe.
Living without you, my world's become so empty.
The days are so cold, lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain.

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it.
I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it
And so I surrendered just to hear your voice.

Group: Son By Four

Tau Takpe..

Conversation made yesterday between myself, Dania and Dina.

Scene: In the kitchen, getting ready to go for a birthday party.


Dania: Ibu, sikat mana?

Me: Dalam bakul tu. Tempat biasa la.

Dania: Takde pun. Mana sikat ni?!

Me: Ada la dalam tu. Cuba carik betul-betul.

Dania: Kaklong dah carik dah. Takde.

Me: Kalau ibu pi carik, jumpa..memang la.....hah, kan ada ni?!! Kaklong ni, suka carik benda pakai hidung!! Mana nak jumpa?

Dina: *Tetiba menyampuk* Dina suka carik pakai kepala lutut!!


Everyone: *huh*? Hahahahahahaa.....sabar je la..

Dania's School Sports Day

Last Saturday was Dania's Sports Day. Both hubby and I had planned to go to her school to give support eventhough the school had discouraged parents to attend allegedly because of the H1N1 epidemic. Yeah right, like anything is going to stop me from jumping up and down, cheering on my girl from the sidelines.

This is Dina. She wanted to come also. Siap pakai kasut sukan lagi. She was supposedly to be Dania's main cheerleader but even before the event started, she complained about the heat and being tired. Hampeh punya cheerleader.



I had sms'ed Dania's teacher to inquire when the sporting events would start. 8am he said. Hmmm..yeah right, even at 9am, nothing had really started. Since we hadn't taken any proper breakfast, hubby took Dina and me to a nearby restaurant for some roti telur.


We went back to the school at 930am and Dania and her team mates had proceeded to the field to prepare for their event. It was another 1/2 hour until it was time for Dania's event to start.


The rules were simple; walk or run across a wooden bench, then jump over a hockey stick, go round some cones and run back as fast as you can. Pass the baton to the next person and go to the back of the line. Here's a video of Dania sprinting her way across the course.

The girls did ok but lack a bit of coordination when passing the baton. In the end, the green team got 3rd placing. OK la, each team member got a tupperware for their efforts. Better luck next time. What matters is that everyone had fun.

One Hurdle Down

Yahooooo!!! Finally, my presentation paper to management was presented and approved!! After going to the damn meeting 4 times and not being able to present (despite staying back until 11pm..uhuk!), we finally got a session this afternoon and finished the presentation in record time. Granted, the committee members were just as anxious to get the whole thing over with also. Hahhaa...bagus, lain kali macam tu. Approve je la..

Dania had her school sports day last Saturday. I'll update more on that in a later post. Oya, also as a treat, hubby took me and the girls for a karaoke session at Mid Valley. Heheheh..best woooo, dapat lepaskan tensen.

Well, I'm off to bed. Just because I've finished one work hurdle, that doesn't mean there aren't anymore ahead of me. But for the time being, let me just pat myself on the back one more time. Haha..

Later, peeps!

Not Again!!

At another presentation meeting right now. I was suppose to start my presentation at 5pm. It's now 630pm and they are currently arguing whether or not we should be presenting the slides to this committee in the first place.

ARGHHHH!!!!

Bleh tak bagi aku balik on time sekali sekala? Sedih tau tak dapat jumpa anak2 tiap2 malam...uhuk.

What la. I have a feeling that this is going take until midnight. Mati laaaa...

Raya 2009 - Day 2 & 3

We headed back to my in-laws on the first day actually, around 5pm. Traffic was light since most people were already back in their hometown. Before getting to my in-laws house, we took a detour to visit hubby's cousin who had just delivered a baby girl.
Here are the girls playing with sparkles in front of the house. Hubby kept watch while Daria didn't really care for all that smoke.

For the 2nd day of Raya, we really didn't go anywhere. My SIL was getting engaged the next day so we had a lot to prepare.

Day 3 and still we didn't go anywhere. Here are pictures from my SIL's engagement ceremony.
The self appointed flower girls. Apparently the theme was maroon. Luckily the girls already had the appropriate dresses.
The girls with their Maksu. The engagement dress actually belonged to my othe SIL but Su had added beads to make it her own.
Su with her future MIL.
The gifts from the families. The maroon colored ones were from our side while the turqouise ones were from Wan's side (Su's fiancee).
And we end with another cute picture of the girls. Hehehe..

My Friend's Loss

Last night I hardly got any sleep. Daria refused to sleep and insisted on playing instead. Remember she only went to bed at 10.30pm last night? She woke up at 1.30am, then again at 3.30am and then again at 6am. Then she totally refused to sleep again. OMG...I had already started to forget what it was like to wake up every 2 hours. The thing is, it wasn't because she was hungry or wet. She just wanted to play.

I hope there will not be any repeat of last night tonight. I could hardly function at work today. It's bad enough I have a tender report to finish up ASAP. Grrr...

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Today I visited a friend. Her stepson passed away this morning. He had died due to a brain tumor. He was 6 years old.

Now this friend of mine, we used to be close. Then life happened and we drifted apart. We meet once in awhile on occasions; she came to see me when I delivered Dania, I visited her when she had her 3rd son. Visits were few and far apart, despite her living in Shah Alam, just a stone throw away from my parents house.

She married a Singaporean Pakistani and became his 3rd wife. While he was still married to the first two. OK, before any of you judge..let me tell you this: it works for her. Somehow, the whole polygamy thing...sharing a husband, staying in the same house with all the other wives...yeah, it's mind boggling and even I'm still trying to come with terms with it all, even after all this time. But this post isn't about that and is not meant to undermine her life, so let's move on.

Her late stepson is about the same age as her eldest boy, so naturally she was the one who breastfed the boy too. Kira jadi ibu susuan la member aku tu. See, harmony...but then again, moving on. Apparently the boy was having trouble concentrating in school and had slight hand tremors. The family took him for a check up and it was then they got the news that he had a big tumor at the base of his spine (behind the neck). It was untreatable since there were too many blood veins involved. This was in March. The boy went for radiation therapy and for a moment, the tumor shrunk to half its size. Then in July it became aggressive. A few weeks after that, the boy lost feeling in his left side. During his last days, he was unresponsive and had medication pumped in 24 hours to prevent him from having fits and choking on his own saliva.

He passed away around 730am today. Innalillahiwatainnahirajiun..

I almost didn't go and see my friend because of the insane workload I had but I'm glad my other friends insisted in dragging me there. For one thing I got to see my friend after so long. And also, I got a reminder about how fragile life is and how we should always cherish the ones we love.

To Y, be strong. I hope we'll meet again soon. Love you.

Raya 2009 - Day 1

Daria finally fell asleep at 10.30pm tonight, a record for her. Usually she sleeps at 8.30pm. Tonight she just wanted to play and hug. I think this is her way of telling me how much she misses me during the day. Hmmm..yet I hope this is just a one off thing and not the norm from now on.

I wanna blog about our Raya before it becomes too stale. This year, Raya was special because of the latest addition to our family. And boy, was Daria a big hit wherever we went. People wanted to hug her and carry her everywhere. And she loved every minute of it!! Needless to say, she got a lot of Raya money!! Hehehe...

Here are some pictures taken of the family during raya. This year we spent Raya morning at my maternal grandma's house in Keramat. All my cousins were there except for my Pakngah's children as they followed their mom back to her hometown.

These are all the female cousins and nieces. I'm the only girl in my family but I contribute three daughters so that balances things out. My aunt from Melaka has 5 daughters!! The eldest is now a doctor; she's the one at the back in the brown baju kurung. FYI, she's also single and looking so any available bachelors..ehem, please contact me if you're interested. Hehehe..If you look to the bottom left of the picture, you'll see part of my grandma's wheelchair. She cried when she say all of us together taking pictures; I guess she was just so happy everyone was with her to celebrate yet another Raya.

These are all the boys; from left to right: My youngest brother (Kamarul), Hubby, my 2nd brother who's getting married next year (Salehin), my 3rd brother (Zulhazmi), my cousin who has 5 sisters (Azad), the other 3 are brothers; Firdaus (orange baju melayu), Amirul (purple) and Aiman (silver). Missing are Hirzan and Faiz.
Here's Daria with her aunts; Makteh Taty and Maklong Aina. Aina's the doctor I mentioned earlier. Taty is currently studying medicine in Bandung. I bought the dress Daria's wearing at during the raya sale at my office. The tag said "for 1-2 years old". Muahahaha..Daria can wear it and she was just 4 months old.
Here are the girls again, minus Daria who had been kidnapped by her uncles. That's my mom's youngest sister on the far left, beside her daughter in the black headgear. Yeah...tell me about it, she doesn't look old enough to have a 18 year old daughter. Then again, people tell my mom the same thing!! People think we're siblings!!
Here's Daria getting to know her Paksu Aiman better. What can I say, the girl sure knows how to melt people's heart with her cheeky smiles and baby talk.

Those are just some pictures we took during the first day of Raya. It's getting late so I'll blog about the rest of Raya in another post.